I made it through the suicide of the man I truly loved but we both knew staying together would be to hard. His drinking also included pills which led to my own heroin addiction and downfall. He eventually got addicted to the heroin and I lost him there. Now there was no way in hell I could be with him. He knew it and I new it. I still remained friends with him and think I am the only one who knew about his first suicide attempt. I think. It was back in 2006 or 7. I now from his increase in substance abuse that I had to watch out for my self. Now since my surgery I have had nothing but pain and problems walking. Doctor put me on vicoprofin, Vicodin and ibuprofin which was much safer for my liver. I felt great and could walk fairly normal and pain free. Then he took me off and put me on Tramadol. Not as good for pain but I liked it better. So now my lovely Doctor decided that I need less and cut back a little. Not a good idea but I agreed with it. Long story short, I'm out and he wont give me any until I see him on the 14th. So I, being in bad pain once again managed to get some vicodin. They don't work as well and find myself taking 2 instead of 1. Now I am not only still in pain, I'm messing up my Liver. I have hepatitis C. I cant go without any pain killers and forget ibuprofen,aleve and all the other weak shit I tried. I need my Tramadol. I can function better with it. My head is not foggy and I don't get "high" from it. It works the best for me. That is why you see so many post about me looking for Tramadol now, until I get to my doctor. I don't want to get addicted to vicodin again. So please if you know me and are near me and you have some.....I will gladly pay you back. I just want to feel good again. I'm not a dope fiend, I just would like to walk and stand up with no pain.
Thanks for listening and I hope I can get help before the 14th.
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